I
remember only one nurse specifically. Over these intervening years
I’ve lost her face and name. Indeed, I’ve been told that we never
think of a face we’ve not met, and I wonder sometimes whether a
fleeting image in my head isn’t that nurse. She was kindest of all
the people at the hospital. Now, don’t mistake my meaning; they
were mostly all kind, but she was best. I can distinctly hear her
voice in my ears even now. I had never seen an angel, but I could
have easily believed she was one.
I
used to keep a journal even then. It was rubbish, of course it was.
Full to bursting with the stupid dreams of a young person: ‘I want
some day to live in a big house! With a spiral staircase! Or maybe a
castle? …Definitely a castle!’ That sort of shit. When this nurse
saw me with a pen in my off-hand, the small book I used propped on my
lap, she asked me if I would like her to write for me. I don’t
think I ever said yes faster in my life. It was the final proof I
needed: She was certainly an angel.
However,
my view of hospitals changed on the day with the boots. They lost
their idyllic quality: That day was the first scratch through the
bright shining lacquer clouding my view of them.
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